words, playlist and photo by Shab Ferdowsi
Friend: Hey, how are you? / Me: Many things.
In August I was many things.
I finally moved out of my parents house into a new apartment on LA's Eastside with 2 friends. My life changed forever when this cut my bus routes down a whole hour, and I was in a neighborhood I had never explored before. I started finding beauty everywhere: the LA river, the railroad and the sound of the Gold Line's whistle every 20 minutes, the empty lots, abandoned government buildings, mexican food stands. Every corner was interesting, every landscape had a story. I started biking again, hiking again, and walking more than I was before.
But this also meant I had to leave my job in West LA, because no way was I about to make the 2 hour bus trek back there. It's been almost 4 weeks and I'm still living in Lincoln Heights unemployed. I'm fine financially for now. But just for now. I've been sending applications and emails out daily, posting Facebook statuses weekly... I'm not sure what I'm looking for honestly. I'm not even sure what I'm able to do. As much as I want to deny it, the truth is my impaired vision leaves me with limitations and it's times like this August where I'd find myself in my bedroom wallowing about it. About my unemployment, about my loneliness, about what the hell I was doing with my life, and again, why the hell was I sitting alone in my bedroom, damnit.
But the second I left my bedroom I'd remember that really, I'm really OK:
Beating Lights had a stage at Echo Park Rising for the first time.
I played a show (with my own music, in front of people, at a venue in DTLA)
I started working on 3 really exciting projects with a couple different friends, all which had me connecting with artists from different places, projects that I will be working on through the next couple months.
So that's why August was many things. It was great. it was sometimes lonely. it was pretty life-changing. and sometimes my heart wanted to puke.
Here's what I was listening to all month (I had Smith Western's first album on repeat for most of it):